Which One Is Your Choice? Self-Esteem or Being Productive?? Your Dignity or Your Job?

Another interesting entry to be shared to my fellow blog-readers.. (Hey!! btw, Thanks alot for reading this blog aite?? XD felt honored to be read even though this blog not really a special and flashy one like the others.. :-) )

Something that came up in my mind when given a brief writing test for interviewees in McD.Yup, apparently Im one of them. A really tricky question you know.. Took me almost half an hour for a mere 20 question. However, this particular question took my attention and is the hardest for me to make a decision on the best answer yet the 1st question to be given to me on that very sheet of paper. Im not sure if there's some ulterior motive or hidden agenda behind those tricky questions. Well, whatever but it is still an important aspect that determines whether one is a good employee or otherwise.

This question was sounded like this roughly :

If you were approached by a customer and claimed that he ordered a cheeseburger but given a hamburger instead, even though you are sure that the customer ordered hamburger beforehand, what would you do??

1) Claim that you were sure that what was ordered was hamburger

2) Apologize saying "Im sorry, I misunderstood with your order" and changes the burger.

For a reasonable response, I would surely choose both depending on the situation. If it is a real situation, personally I would rather stand for myself first, but if matters get out of hand, then, sadly I would give up my Ego for the better good and change the burger. This first scenario of course ultimately ended up to the second choice. But why not choose the second choice straightaway without having to arguing in the 1st choice?? My answer would be to protect my dignity. In most cases, I would not give in to anyone if I am confidently believe it myself truly. But I do admit that I must set-aside such idealistic idea just for the reason of appreciating the built relationship. However of course in this situation, no special relationship was at hand but rather, its more to the matter of my obligations for the company. As a contracted employee, it is an utmost duty for all to be doing labors for the company by servicing the customers as the "Kings" and "Queens".

But hey! Talking about such things as doing labors and prioritizing the company's benefits, what if the end of the situation would not actually gave benefits for the company but instead, causing loss for the company?? The situation says for itself, "Replacing the burger instead". Some would say, charge the guy the extra margin according with the new price of a cheeseburger and a hamburger. Yes, that would be reasonable. However, what if the guy was just a jerk that wanted benefit only for himself by not paying the extra charges or claiming that he paid fully for the cheeseburger and claiming that you're the one that mistakenly taking order and gave him a hamburger?? The receipt would be best answer for that. But oopppss there the guy making another excuse by saying that WE are the ones that were at fault here and that WE are the ones that should apologize by giving free of the cheeseburger as a sign of apology. Yup, we took the option of apologizing and setting aside of EGO and all. But what if saying "Im sorry" was not enough for him and wanted the cheeseburger for the price of a hamburger?? Loss for the company my friend!! In exchange, you're the one that should pay to the company for this loss. You're the one that should pay up for this jerk's cheeseburger that even you cant afford to buy one. DAANNGG! haha..

From this, you got two impact of loss here. Both outside and inside. The outside one of course your money that was paid up all just because of some lie. The inside was my friend, is more dangerous than you can even imagine. You know, I learnt this from a subject of social psychology. It was said that these things, giving in to someone's wrongdoings even though you believe truly of yourself, would lower a great deal of your self-esteem. You wont gonna realize it because it occurs inside of yourself. Subconsciously. Self-esteem fyi, is the way How you look at yourself personally. Its in effect forever in your life unless you do something about it.

So then how?? Would you choose to stay in your ground and standing up to your own point that the mistake didnt even occur?? The continuance of a never-ending pointless argument?  As i pointed out, "Pointless"! What would one ever hope in achieving through the end of that?? Mostly the answer for that is self-contentment.. Puas hati.. Haha..  But what if in the end, the customer got so angry even though you WON in the argument, that the customer urges the manager to fire you? I'd gone through that once. Cant remember the details. Well, who's the one that really won here if the manager does such thing?? You maybe won in that argument for your self-esteem, but apparently you lose the job. So?? 

Since long time, I have believed that there is no such thing as a situation that presents itself of only two choices. For me, there is always another opportunities, if there is none from what was given, then, MAKE yourself one. But well, that was easier said than done. I do admit that sometimes Im a bit of an idealists. Never can change that in me. Hurmmm... Well, as I think things through.. There is several choices that can be made on such occasion...

1) Cameras.. CCTV that watches over transactions.. Can traces back to such moments of uncertainty.. Whether, the guy paid the amount of cheese, or hamburger..

2) Gonna choose the latter one, if I am to be get fired for over such trivial thing, then I guess I will accept it. But the records not gonna be clean after that when your applying for another job. But who knows?? Everyone deserves a second chance right?? We'll never know until we try and wouldnt gonna give up in trying. But bear in mind not to take anything for granted.

3) well, this one a bit unfair to me. But gonna choose to pay the man for falsely claimed mistake. The jerk's got his cheeseburger, and me loss of paying it. But not to worry I guess, cause im gonna get the payback's from up there. haha yeaahh, pahala for my tolerance.  There is always hikmah in every situation and I chose to get the best of it. Even Rasulullah tells his people to be patient, for the reward's gonna wait at the end of that. Sound good to me and worth waiting and risking my self-esteem for. 

Yup.. Thats all...

Wonders of my Mind that Keeps Wondering About Its Wonders..

Berpikir juga aku... apa mau taip di blog ni..haha  boring kan menunggu anime habis streaming atau buffering.. jadi otaku sudah aku ni utk satu malam...terserempak dua tajuk Manga yang menarik dan satu tajuk Anime yang lebih menarik..just my type of story and plot. Both Psycho and Leadership. Bah..ok lah..back to the topic hehe...


Yup2... Well, I guess its fair to first bringing up the histories of my Mind. Development, the ups and downs, source of aspiration, everything (well, maybe not everything. But to the extent that I remembered and significant to be shared in this entry). From the point that I do remember, is the feeling I got from mastering Mathematics in Primary 1. (FYI, I was once in a Chinese primary school. Only to be transferred after founding out Im almost hopeless in grasping to learn Chinese language. Haha...Even communications there in Malay regardless of which race). That feeling for once got 100% marks..LOL XD first time in ma life bah tu.. Considering in realizing how easy maths is in Primary level. I guess that's credit to my father maybe. Didnt quite remember. But then, as I advances to Primary 2, signs of deterioration was apparent and proven imminent. For change, punishments both humiliating and excruciatingly painful either home and school was unavoidable. Obviously, considering the tenderness of my age back then, most of the times Im being indifferent with such situations. fantasizes all the time and entertainment was all that I ever chased all the time. Being average felt suffice at those moments. But deep down in me, day to day, exams till exams, results to results, I begun to aware of my 'Envy' towards those others who excels. Being a Scorpio, its unavoidable of me to felt such feelings. Of course few of the Scorpions individuals characteristics is competitive, determined, easily-jealous, etc. However, I do know lah as to how to suppress them in particular situation. Being envy in the good way. Slowly, thriving to be better and compete with the best. Comparing results and all.


Finding out WHAT is the thing that I do have in strength, I found of course English language. Believe me, most of those came from watching constantly English cartoons in Disney Channel through Astro. Winnie the Pooh, Barney, etc. Its quite easy back then in determining grammar of a sentence. Comparison was used  constantly by me even today, in affirming the correctness of the grammars and spellings of the English words. If I felt that it was wrong, using only instinct? (or whatever, I dont know what to call it. Memory I guess) , I would correct it by then. Spelling however, if I cant remember it, I would spell by the sound of the word. haha Naive I guess. But it works occasionally.


One of the significant influence that is vital to be highlighted is about my Thinking. I mentioned about this in my other blog of the My Emotion is The Queen of Me. Its about the Imam Syafiee's characteristic of his of being someone that less talks other than things that is beneficial to be talked about. Considering myself that most of the time is a quite one, I am amazed that few of the great Imam Syafiee's characteristics was in fact shared in common with me. Plus, having my childhood that was full of Animes when first introduced by such great animation, I learnt a great deal of things within the stories and colors of anime that I became who I am today.  


Afterwards, advancing another major stage of education,.Im beginning to stand out for the first 6-7 years of study and constantly being praise and taken exampled of. But yet, its really sad how temporary people remembers of such things. I guess Im not really the type that is consistent when talking about achievements. As people say, Life is just like a wheel. There are times when we were at the top, but later, only to found ourself declining. From that onwards, somehow I felt a brief despise over compliments. They're only temporary in effect given by other people. It also makes us to be conceited. Proud. maybe too much. From that moment, I seek something greate than just a temporary success. I seek one that fulfils absolutely my goal of life. Something where one day, I can say proudly to myself in deathbed before leaving this world, "I do not have any regrets." 




Having attained such achievement only to lose it later, I somehow going through another moments of declining . back to being an average student. But only to found out that friends around me, to be in much worse situations. Its awkward, when youre just really average, but still the best among others. Realizing this, suddenly, Im in thirst for way more than that. Thirst for competition. Thirst of becoming better. Dying for rivals to brought me up again and supasses them with my own hands. As no one to be found around me, I decided to competes with those of the best in a distant. For them not even knowing the existence of me, I called that few people whose excels, my rivals. Though, strange, but it came to fruition. Bit by bit until I was accepted to be among them.


Time passes on and I realized, that im in a whole different level. It is much more initimidating and harder when I faces them head-on. Realizing this fact, it turns out finally i can feel originally average yet again. Where this one, you really are an average and there are few that are greater whee you can aim to defeat them one-by-one. 


At this moment, Im fully aware that it is time to make a decisive decision. There is no longer any competitiveness to be fought on other than to fight for my dream and ambition . In other words, Im challenging myself to become whom I dreamt on .Thus, we finally reach to the point where everyone has to make decison for themselves and be in the path that they wanted. It is likely most of us will be separated in our own ways, dreams and ambitions. I took one of my own without any hesitation that it is the right thing to do.


So I reached my own 'Path'. Now is the matter of reaching the ends of it. To fulfill my own words to myself, I  seek the oppurtinity to improve myself in speaking presentation, debate or any other public speeches more than ever before. As it is decided 'Law' shall be my life-long career goal. But ironic as it may be, I am not the one that was a frequent in talking or communicating with others. Not to mention how shy I am before the Society. But there is no shred of doubtness in me. I know that I had to do it when it comes to it. Thus the reason that I may be a quiet one that didnt really talks a lot. But, believe me, when the situation asked for it, you wouldnt hear me stopping from explaining things.


My inspiration to pursue Law was at first were really simple. Because I've decided it. May not really care if I stumbles along the way. I only had this one dream that I wouldnt give it up. Hell, I wouldnt even care if I am to die fighting for it. You see. Becoming laywer has always been my dream. Passionate in this, I am. That I would even gone to the extent of 'Tapau' this book of 'Intro to Law' book from the library of my school just because I dont have the luxury to go back again and again to the school 's library. Even amazing is that, all the years I've been reading that book, only to ended up being taught the same person who wrote that book!! XD haha.. LOL.. never thought of that. I guess fate brings us together.. Oh well.. Oh yeah another incident that affirmed my determination to pursue this field is that there is this one that really happened in school.


Well, there is this one guy.. My close-friend he is. The guy just sadly, in the brink of a break-up between his girlfriend. As usual what friends do, they share this kind of problems with their friends. he asks my advice and opinions about some things that happened between his gf. Its just that subconsciously, I adviced back passionately to him. Even control his words and actions. What to do if like this, like that. What to say to her, dont say anything if youre not sure, approach me first before approaching her.. Mostly I done that just because he is my dearest friend, but what I didnt realize is that one thing this friend of mine brought up. Basically he just said that I was like a lawyer in the way I done things handling his problems. (Others too claim that I talked like a lawyer. dunno if its true, maybe just because I talked too much when arguing) . That statement really shocked the hell out of me. I mean, I never intended to do it like a lawyer in the first place. Considering what he just said, I cant help but admit that I do. Hidden talent?? haha dunno... It just happened like how a lawyer treat his client. Plus, speaking up wouldnt really be a problem for me. So that is the reason why I wanted to continue on with this dream. How far can I go with this? Can I handle ups and downs of this path and all? Only god knows.. Anyway, I intend to go along with this and get my answer..

Pahlawan Melayu Dan Artikel 5-13 juga Artikel 182 Perlembagaaan Malaysia

Semalam, Lecturer subjek Perlembagaan kami Puan Che Norlia, didalam kuliahnya ada sedikit menyentuh mengenai kisah Hang Jebat dan Hang Tuah. Kuliahnya mengenai dari masa awal bagaimana Perlembagaan Malaysia dibentuk dalam mengiktiraf hak2 Asasi manusia Dalam Perkara 5-13 dlm Perlembagaan Malaysia.   Dia memulakan dgn fakta bahawa kaum melayu pada masa dahulu sangat setia pada raja. 'Tiada raja tiada lah kerajaan. Perkataan Kerajaan pun datangnya daripada raja." Pada masa itu, perkataan raja lah undang2 dan jika rakyat x mengikutinya, maka dianggap sebagai derhaka pada raja. pada masa ini, tiada kesedaran lagi mengenai hak asasi masing2 dan mereka cuma tahu dan percaya pada raja mereka. Memikirkan apa yang dikuliahkan puan, saya sendiri pun bersetuju dgn apa yang diucapkan. Betul Melayu dari dulu lagi memang kadang2 terlalu setia dgn raja mereka sehingga ada ayat "Pantang Melayu derhaka pada Raja". Ini membawa maksud bahawa jika ada yang derhaka pada Raja, maka dia x lah boleh dianggap sebagai seorg yg brbangsa Melayu. Namun begitu, kita x lah boleh menyalahkan mana2 pihak sama ada Raja atau pun nenek mOyang kita yg menjadi rakyat melayu pada masa itu kerana memang macam itu lah cara hidup mereka. Apa yang menarik di dalam kuliah Puan ialah ketika dy mula menyentuh prkara2 dan isu2 yg kOntrOversi dan sensitif (Ini yang saya kagumi dan paling suka tiap kali mendengar kuliah beliau) iaitu mengenai tertubuhnya Perkara 182 (3) yang mmperuntukkan pnubuhan mahkamah khas yang bertujuan utk mmbicarakan Sultan2 yang melanggar mana2 undang2 di luar tugasnya sbg pemerintah. Perkara ini lah yang satu2 nya menarik balik kekebalan para sultan drpd dibicarakan. Skg, Sultan dan Raja pun akan dibicarakan jika bersalah. Sesuatu yang x prnah difkirkan para nenek mOyang kita pada masa dahulu-kala. Antara peristiwa penting yg mnybbkan tertubuhnya artikel ini ialah selepas kisah seorang sultan yang memukul seorg 'caddy' sehingga mati atas berangnya dy setelah ditertawakannya oleh 'caddy' tersebut. Pada masa selepas kejadian ini lah Dato Seri Dr. Mahathir dgn braninya mmpersoalkan signifikan kesetiaan orang Melayu pada raja.

Dalam kuliah puan Norlia juga, sebenarnya dari awal lagi org Melayu telah di ingatkan bahawa Sultan x sepatutnya menjadi sebahagian drpd kerajaan dan menjadi pemerintah oleh pihak British. Terutamanya pada msa pendOkumentasinya Perlembagaan Malaysia oleh Suruhanjaya Reid dimana sistem kerajaan kita telah diubah daripada Sistem Monarki, kepada Sistem Monarki Berperlembagaan. Terfikirkan ini, betul juga. Disebalik ini, ada juga lah sdikit persoalan dalam diri, bagaimana pula Queen of Britain dkt sna?? Ada kah mereka juga pernah brbuat jenayah atau adakah juga mereka melalui perkara yang sama iaitu mereka harus mengikuti perlembagaan mereka?? hurrmm..... apa pun, perkara yang saya ingin tegaskan dekat sini ialah tika puan mula mentiOn pasal kisah sejarah Pergaduhan Antara Hang Jebat dan Hang Tuah. Beliau berkata bahawa pada masa dulu lagi orang Melayu tidak pernah terfikirkan hak mereka lebih daripada perintah sultan.  "Jika orang Melayu pada msa dahulu akan terfikirkan hak asasi mereka, maka Hang Jebat akan menjadi seorang HerO.dan Hang Tuah yang akan dituduh mematuhi sultan membabi buta". wOw!! She's right my friend!! memanglah.. sejak dulu lagi, saya sendiri pun mengagumi Hang Tuah dan didalam cerita pergaduhan Hang Jebat dan Tuah dalam wayang Tun Sri P.Ramlee pun saya lihat Hang Jebat sebagai seorang yang jahat yang telah banyak membunuh orang lain pada msa itu dan Hang Tuah sabagai seorang yang herO.  Saya pun sememangnya faham juga bukan hang Jebat yang patut dipersalahkan kerana dia cuma mengamuk kerana ditipu sultan bahawa Hang Tuah telah mati dan depress nya Hang Jebat sehingga bertindak mcm tu. namun, x pernah saya fikirkan bahawa fikiran kita pada zaman moden ini, sebenarnya memihak pada Hang Jebat lebih daripada Hang Tuah. Disni, kita dapat andaikan bahawa mindset zaman ini, di pihak Hang Jebat, manakala, di pihak Hang Tuah pula, terletaknya mindset para nenek moyang kita.

 Ianya seperti menunjukkan pada peristiwa pergaduhan itu, Hang Tuah tidak mahu menerima mindset zaman moden ini bahawa ada lagi yang lebih penting daripada Sultan iaitu Hak Asasi kita sbg seorang manusia. Jika sultan mencabuli hak ini, yang mana satu kah akan Hang Tuah memilih pihak?  Hang Tuah seperti ada semangat orang Jepun pula yang taat kepada Maharaja nya yang dipanggil 'BushidO' yang sanggup melakukan 'Seppuku' (Tikam Perut Sendiri) jika didapati derhaka Maharaja. Juga satu semangat yang aku kagumi. tapi, x relevan lagi di zaman ini.

Siapa lagi yang lebih penting daripada orang yang kita sayangi?? Siapa lagi yang kita boleh lebih patuhi daripada Allah S.W.T yang Maha berkuasa??

 Perkara seperti ini, membuatkan aku terfikir lagi. Hang Jebat lah seorang yang hanya menyedari hakikat ini. kerana persahabatannya dengan Hang Tuah, beliau sanggup menderhakai Sultan. Hang Jebat lah seorang yang terlebih dahulu lebih matang daripada kaum Melayu yang lain pada masa itu. Hang Jebat lah yang terlebih dahulu yang memikirkan perkara yang sama apa yang DatO Tan Sri Dr. Mahathir tengah fikirkan selepas kes Sultan melakukan jenayah buat pertama kalinya.  Hang Jebat lah yang terlebih dahulu daripada yang lain memiliki mindset seperti kita di zaman moden ini. Hnag Tuah yang telah membunuh rakannya sendiri demi kesetiaan nya pada sultan memang satu peristiwa yang sedih. Ini menunjukkan bahawa hang Tuah masih tetap seorang manusia. herO bagaimana pun dia. pasti melakukan kesilapan. Hang Tuah belum lagi mempunyai mindset seperti kita. Belum lagi pernah terfikir ada yang lebih penting daripada sultan. Namun, kejadian ini dan perbuatan Hang Jebat pasti akan memberi kesan yang besar pada Hang Tuah ..

AbOut the creatiOn of these twO blOgs of mine..

Alhamdulillah.. Praise tO Allah.. Ive Finally finished my very first blOg..Im Planning tO create anOther one in these few days.. InsyaAllah if Allah's wills it..First of all, the King i mentiOned up there actually refers tO my mind. I always perceive my mind in my brain tO be the King of me whilst the emOtiOn in my heart as the Queen of me. Exaggerated but they're actually are the closest of such pOsition and rOles in a human body. The Mind(King) tells our bOdy what tO dO and the emOtiOn (Queen) feels our very sOul inside. The Queen tends tO acts based on her feelings while the King acts based on reasOn and lOgics. nOt all of our actiOns was based on our emOtiOns as before we does on what we felt is right, everything must gO thrOugh our mind first whether it is the right thing to dO after all. The prOs n cOns r tO b cOnsidered first by our mind. That's why I separates the twO of them in twO blOgs. fOr they cannot really blends in perfectly. hOwever, i undeniably accept that bOth of them cOmpletes me for whO I am. sO many cOmplicatiOns happened inside of me. sO many cOnflicts that sOmetimes i cannot see clearly which one is right. Was it frOm my heart or instinct?? or was it the one that came frOm my mind is the one that I shOuld trust fully in..??  by separating and lists them all out, i hOped greatly that it will make me see things clearly everything that is inside of me..i guess im nOt that simple of a human being..hOw Great n beautiful the Power of Allah S.W.T in creating human beings.. :-D